Was that a dream?

That's what I woke up thinking, was yesterday a dream? I think the last time that happened was when I found out I was pregnant with Nolan.
After meeting with an oncologist in a high risk breast cancer group, going over my options, talking with my family about them, and feeling completely calm and confident with my decision, today just seems surreal. I've been putting off this oncologist appointment for years but there have been some coincidences over the past couple of months that led to this appointment, which I know is God working. So I know the timing is right and this calm and confidence I have is all God too.
With my mom having breast cancer at 40 and both of us having BRAC 1, my chances of breast cancer are at 90% and ovarian cancer at 40%. I'm terrified of ovarian cancer and want to grow old with David and see my boys grow into men so I'm willing to do what it takes. Well, the oncologist told me that research now says you have to be aggressive with BRCA 1 carriers. So I will be having a bilateral mastectomy and oophorectomy (ovary removal) and meeting with the surgeon in a couple of weeks. Now my only decisions are to keep my nipples (which increases my chances of breast cancer from 1% to 3%), have breast reconstruction surgery or just be flat chested, which are all cosmetic. Seems fitting that all of this would be happening doing Breast Cancer Awareness Month too. God you are amazing!