About 5 years ago I had genetic testing done since my mom tested positive for BRCA1 and had breast cancer at an early age. It turns out that I also carry the gene mutation BRCA1, which means that I have an 86% chance of developing breast cancer and a 43% chance of ovarian cancer. At the time I took the news hard. I couldn't tell someone the results with out tearing up.
Fast forward to today and I look at the results as a blessing. They give me a chance to live a better life so that I don't increase my chances of cancer. I don't drink alcohol, I try to exercise, and I hesitate when certain drugs are prescribed.
The last one has been hard these past couple of years. When my doctor suggested taking Clomid to conceive I wasn't sure about it because it can increase my chances of cancer. It was successful the first time I took it. The next time I took Clomid, it was successful. This time it was not successful and increasing the dose was not successful. The side effects are too much for me and David, so we are done with this option.
I hesitate to tell people how I am struggling with infertility because the suggestions and comments that are given and the reality is that it hurts to face that I can't have children easily. I really wanted to have children close together, but this happens with God's timing.
Right now it looks like an adoption from China will be 5 to 10 years. I've just started looking into this so if you have any suggestions on agencies or know someone that went through an international adoption, let me know.