I can say that right now, I am truly happy. Even though my children have delays, they are growing. Even though my husband is swamped at work, he makes an effort to be present at home. Even though I rarely see any friends, I have one that I talk to almost daily. I went off my antidepressants a few weeks ago and have had some struggles lately, but through them I'm still happy. I've been on antidepressants since the day I gave birth to Nolan, so that I could appreciate him through those hormonal, sleep deprived time. It was worth it. I find myself smiling a lot and meaning it.