Friday, January 31, 2014

Amber Jewelry

Thank you for the amber jewelry Mama. I got a chance to wear it on our date night. 

I find it interesting when I look at this photo I can see the migraine in the left side of my face. It's always behind my left eye and we found out a couple years ago that my left pupil get smaller when I have a migraine. 

Thursday, January 30, 2014

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

Monday, January 27, 2014

Basketball Game 1/25 at

A Sun Dog

I captured a picture of what I thought was a cool rainbow at the time, it also has the moon and sun in it. The rainbow is actually a sun dog caused by refracted light from ice crystals in cold weather. There is also a rainbow on the other side of the sun but I couldn't get a good picture of it.

Sunday, January 26, 2014

MLK Day at Indiana State Museum

Most museums were free on MLK Day so we went to one we'd never been to before. It was neat to see Isaac so interested in history and I look forward to when we can spend more time exploring there. 

Saturday, January 25, 2014

2 Year Boobiversary and Depression

It's been two years since I had a BPM (bilateral prophylactic mastectomy). I'm not really in a mood to talk about it right now. So I'll direct you to where I'm at now. I'm struggling with depression on most days. I guess it's better than crying for no reason, but it's still not the life I want to live. The only reason I get out of bed is because my 2 year old and 4 year old can't care for themselves yet. I'm certain that my depression is brought on my these Indiana winters and my crazy hormones. I have an appointment with my doctor in a couple of weeks to talk about treatments and I'm hopeful. I've lived with this long enough to know that depression lies. Right now it is telling me that I'll never be happy and that I won't find joy in everyday life again, but I know when spring comes I'll bask in the sunlight. Depression is telling me that I'm screwing up my kids by now being more involved in their interests, but I know that no one can replace me in their lives. Depression tells me no one wants to hear about this, it's such a downer; but I know that by sharing my story I can help others. I learned that through my mastectomy recovery. I still get messages of friends that have gotten a mammogram because of me. If you've never had depression then watch the Ted Talks video that is linked below. Even if you do suffer from depression, it makes you feel validated. It's 29 minutes long, but well worth it.

"The opposite of depression is not happiness, but vitality, and it was vitality that seemed to seep away from me in that moment." In a talk equal parts eloquent and devastating, writer Andrew Solomon takes you to the darkest corners of his mind during the years he battled depression. That led him to an eye-opening journey across the world to interview others with depression -- only to discover that, to his surprise, the more he talked, the more people wanted to tell their own stories.

Thursday, January 23, 2014

Wednesday, January 22, 2014

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

A fort

This is what two 5 year old can do when they want to escape the living room.